ready to go

This past week was so stressful and anxiety-ridden I couldn’t even wait until the weekend. Unfortunately, the weekend involved me working on Saturday and then having to go to a floral expo on Sunday… so there really wasn’t much rest to be had. Last night I slept horribly, and my dreams were filled with things that made me wake up in a cold sweat, and panicking that something awful was going to happen. Then I had to head back to work today to stare at the clock and wait for 5:30 to come. It didn’t come nearly fast enough, in case you were wondering.

If you’re interested in why my week was so chaotic, you can read about it here, at my livejournal. I won’t mess up a clean entry with a bunch of ranting about how absolutely ridiculously stupid our justice of the peace is, or how stressful it is to deal with lawyers and the government. I’ll just try and leave it behind me.

I bought a new toy for myself on Friday night to celebrate the fact that we made it through the week. This is our new friend. I’ve yet to come up with a name for him/her. Any ideas? I am in love with it, and I can’t seem to get my ass off the computer. Poor Simon is starting to feel neglected, I think.

I am so tired. I’m so tired of work, and I’m so tired of issues. I’m just so drained from so much – especially work. People there who lie and kiss ass and whine and cry… I’m just so sick of having to sit there and smile and act like none of it gets to me, because it does. A fucking flower shop should not be so damn dramatic. It drives me insane.

I need a vacation. I think Simon and I should go someplace sunny and warm. Someday, maybe.