it’s just not normal.

It’s weird… I’m getting up this morning just like any other weekday, and I’m getting ready for work (although quite begrudgingly), but it keeps dawning on me that I won’t be opening the store. And there won’t be any customers. It’s just us cleaning, and doing the last of the paperwork before we really and truly walk away from the shop.

Except, I may not be walking away from the shop. After all the ranting I was doing about not being able to work in a place that wasn’t my family’s anymore… I think I may have just changed my mind. My father told me the other day that the new owner really wants me. Because I know the customers and the system and the floor and the phones… He said he’d probably be able to pay me what I’m worth, too.

I’ve been thinking about it, and I may just be thinking it couldn’t hurt to try. Besides, I could always just tell the guy that I’ll work for him until he finds my replacement, right?

Speaking of not opening the store – I am so very happy, considering I can hardly move. I am so tired/breathless/achy/UGH. I just want to go back to bed. Hopefully my job there won’t take me too long and I’ll be able to come back home and nap.

I’ve been thinking lately of buying a new domain again. I miss the ability to have the freedom I want with designs and space. I kind of have a name in mind, although it’s definitely different than most names I’ve ever picked out for myself. Then again, I’ve been changing a lot, so that would make sense. I think it describes me very well, and I’m debating whether or not I want to spend the money. I’m thinking I need an outlet for my creativity and emotions again – and web designing seems to be one of the only ways I know how to do that.